2 POUNDS

So in my world of dropping my baggage, lately I have been tacking on new pieces while dropping off pounds! NOT GOOD!!! I am not only suppose to be letting go of my weight but also of emotional baggage!!
I had a weigh in today, first in three weeks, too much going on last week to go! And I found out I had lost 2lbs! Thats really great but I had wished for losing 4lbs so I could be under the 200 mark. I mean I am almost there, right at 201!!! I have lost a total of 44.5 lbs since August! Thats a great accomplishment for my health!!
Lately I have been losing my focus! I don't know why, sometimes I allow my emotions to determine what I eat, which is very bad when you eat to comfort yourself!!! Sometimes I allow others decisions to eat unhealthy encourage me to eat things I know I shouldn't!
I have worked out twice this week which is more than last week!! Now if I can just get myself up to three times a week!! I know that it would make such a difference!
While at the gym Tuesday night, it was on MTV's show "I Use To Be Fat" or some such nonsense. But the girl on there had a personal trainer, and I thought to myself, oh how lucky she is to have someone push her and help her to know what she needs to do for exercise. I wish I could find some personal trainer to take pity on my financial situation, and would help me workout!!!But alas I will stick with my workout dvds and the gym!
Right now I am at war with my body, it is trying to get sick.I know I have pushed it this week, with working both jobs and so little sleep. But I plan to rest up over the weekend, and next week I will only work one day at the bank. SO maybe that will help some more! We shall see....well thats whats been going on and through my mind. Hopefully in two weeks I will be at 199!!!