Not so good...

Well, Ladies and Gents, its time to kick myself into gear.
    I did so great last week with my exercising.
    This week however has been rough. I have been busy at work and also working my 2nd job so its not left me with allot of energy or time to work out. My goal I set last week w/ my doctor was to lose 3 lbs. and here it is Wednesday and I am sure I haven't lost anything.
     I am getting to another hump, where I struggle with not getting frustrated. Because I know I want to lose 30 more lbs. my mind is becoming overwhelmed with the work and dedication it will take to lose it. I have to not allow myself to get stuck into my destructive mindsets of saying, "why cant it be easier for me" "why cant i just be skinny without working at it like other girls i know!"
    I have to remind myself constantly, that while those girls may be skinny and not working at it now, it could very easily catch up with them as they get older. And I have to ask myself, even if they are skinny are they healthy?? And allot of times the answer is no, they may be thin, but are they giving their bodies the nutrients and vitamins it needs? are they giving it the exercise it needs?
     So instead of focusing on others, i have to take myself full circle and get myself focused back on what I need to do for me!!!
So I am going to take it day by day. Meal by Meal!!
My goal for today, cuz it is 1:46 am, is that I am going to hit the sack, get some sleep and work out when i wake up!! No Matter what!!!