Mildly Frustrated

Last weekend, I had a breakdown. I still couldn't get into my bridesmaid dress after three weeks of changing it up. I was eating less calories and worked out 3 times during the week! So, I went out on our deck and just told my roomies that I was done. "My body doesn't want to lose anymore weight!" Abby, my very optimistic, always looks on the good side, said, "JANCI YOU ARE NOT GIVING UP! You need a personal trainer to push you!" "How will I pay for that and when do I have the time," I replied.
That is when Abby volunteered to get up early three mornings a week and workout with me. We have been fast walking, jogging and then running small parts. Abby has no mercy on me! I come back soaked with sweat. I even worked out on my own on the days we didn't work out together. I have continued eating less calories.

BUT

I don't see any changes in my body!!

 I am completely frustrated!!

My weight hasn't gone down, and I can't tell that I have lost any inches. I feel like I have just reached a point where my body is holding on to this junk and wont let go.
However, I am not giving up! I am just going to keep pushing through. But to be perfectly honest, I don't feel like doing it. Sometimes when we are jogging and its getting really hard, I say to myself, "You CAN do this, You WILL do this" over and over until I get to the part where I can fast walk.
Something that also helps besides that saying is, that I pray before we start that God gives me the strength to do it. That He will wake me up and help push me out the door. And He has been faithfully showing up. I know that He is giving me the energy on those days, especially when I have to work both my jobs.
So here its is Labor Day Monday and since I wasn't here this morning, we are going to go walk the bridge. God will definitely be helping me on this one, cause that bridge is no walk in the park.
Please be praying that I shed the few inches I need to fit in that dress but also that I will continue exercising and working on losing more weight.

"I CAN DO THIS...I WILL DO THIS"

Cooper River Bridge Run April 2, 2011
If I can do that, then I certainly can go the rest of the way!